Thursday, January 21, 2010
A Heart so Full
Tonight after I got home from the gym and helped get Evan ready for bed I asked Dave to read him his books and put him to bed so I could jump in the shower quick. Evan was standing making noise in his crib when I got out so I scooped him up and rocked him for a few moments which I don't normally do. As I did I started thinking about how much I LOVE this boy. My heart was/is so full of love for him. People often ask 'do you remember what it's like not having kids?' To that I answer...sometimes, I remember how easy it was to go out somewhere QUICKLY not having to remember a diaper bag, juice, snack, a toy etc etc. Independence I guess. But you know what? I would not trade that independence for my son ANY DAY of the week. I can't imagine my life without him in it. He brings me so much joy each day. I've always wondered how I will love ANOTHER baby like I love him. I've heard it's quite easy though :). So before I put Evan back in his crib I gave him a squeeze and kissed him (of course!) and told him how much I love him as I always do. I don't ever want a day to go by...good days AND bad days...where I don't express my love for him!